So to my dismay, the post I typed vanished when the computer in the library decided to shut down and for some reason silly WordPress did not save it. Thank you for that. Sheesh.
Now my near-depressive-ness has vanished as well, and I feel normal again. Sigh so much for a wannabe post that would’ve been influenced by extreme emotions and reached minds of equally depressed individuals.
The drama has died down. Bringing myself back to reality, I think. I try to think rather. I did expect what I got. The figures on the screen were not lying to me. I did not try hard, circumstances I cannot vouch for came in to being and what happened, happened.
While it is feels awful to let someone down and their expectations of you, in my opinion, what hurts the most – no it’s not the sappy Rascal Flatts song – is when you let down yourself. When you let down yourself after promising yourself that you would not let the same thing happen to you, again.
I guess sometimes, some people never learn.I recall a recent article that I read on how people never change and vividly recall myself battling in my mind in anguish as to how untrue it was. Jawks on me I guess.
For the wise man or woman – so I will not be gender bias – who said that history repeated itself, you have no fucking idea.